It's 5 in the morning yet I'm still awake, not the least sleepy at all. Past few days had been the same as well. I wonder why. No matter how tired I got, I can't seems to get on to bed only when it's around 6. I start to fear. What should I do on the coming sunday. I bet I won't be able to turn in.
Wrote a letter to_ at my another getaway. It's..
Mother Tongue paper is in 5 days time! & I'm worried sick. Bless me, bless me.
20th, study section. Every Tuesday, same place with the same clique. Once again, we did the same old thing. We got all excited when we came across some topic & we went on & on. But, this time, it was better. We manage to control a little & get going with our work.
Charis's project is seriously weird yet interesting. Just a rough idea of the question. Q: How do you help control someone who fall & injured their ankle & was bed-ridden urination system physically & phycologically? I guess it's about that. Weird?
After which, we contacted Eugene & asked if he wanted a game of mahjong over at my house & he agreed. Waited for him & make our way back. Dinner & started playing. It lasted till 10. After fashion forward ended, they went off.
Tv & more mahjong. But, just for fun this time round, no cash transation involved. Soon after, it started to get bored cause there was only 3 of us & we decided to clear up.
Stared into the fan that went turning & turning up at the ceiling. No doubt, I started those thoughts running within. Somehow, I realise I can't forget him. I never could believe that he actually would mean so much to me. All those things I did in the past, rewinded. All those things that happened, reconstructed. I know, to others, it's just silliness. But yet it still mean so much to me.
The song, it reminds me of you. It kept playing & I kept thinking. It been so long yet it's still the same for me. But I won't wish for anything like I use to. It's over, I know. I just need more time to walk myself out.
Bk tomorrow morning perhaps. Tillthen.
I never know I could love so hard.
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